My Writing History

October 4, 2013 in Blog,Creativity,Five Minute Friday

In a far away pre-kids time,  I was a senior high school English teacher. Woefully undereducated by a college where English was a reflection of social interests (Hispanic Women’s Lit and Gender Roles in Shakespeare) rather than study nuisances of our language and be exposed to master story tellers, I spent most nights studying to master the basics. And when I wasn’t studying I was grading. And when I wasn’t doing either of those things, I was recovering. And I loved the teaching. I couldn’t handle the grading. 150 students. Every one writing three page essays and they deserved feedback, one on one inspiration and instruction, and I couldn’t duplicate myself so I struggled. In those days of hauling stacks of paper, I forgot how to write me. I could spout a list of transition words or launch into an explanation of point of view,

I lost more of my writing me when my girls were born until one MOPS meeting in a new town, before Facebook was a daily event, the moms were talking blogs. And I found a platform to write.

Six years later, I still blog, but lately I can’t finish a paragraph. Every one I write feels forced, partially true, awkward. Perhaps as a writer I’ve hit my middle school years–where I want constant affirmation and where I constantly reject it. But how a tween get through middle school? By attending, one day at time. So this fall, I resolved to write at least three days a week.I even assigned writing a time slot in our school schedule. But I still can’t finish a post that isn’t for Five Minute Friday.

I love stories. I love the power of words to connect people. Sentences, stories fill my brain at stop lights, in the dark, in the shower, and when I am helping my girls complete their writing assignments. Still, the stories are stuck inside.

Recently, I’ve helped other sweet homeschool mamas who are struggling to teach their kiddos to write. And I never want to do it. But I say yes and while I help and teach and preach the fire returns. And I don’t want to stop.

Time is up. I love the community of word lovers who band together on Fridays at Lisa-Jo’s and write for five minutes without fear of getting it wrong. Today’s word is write. Won’t you join us?

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Becky Daye October 4, 2013 at 1:54 pm

Okay, my friend! I think you know that I LOVE your writing. I love your perspective, I love your heart, I love the challenge I find here. There are a small number of bloggers that I have found via 5 minute Friday posts that have grown into friends, but you are one of them. And it was because of your writing that I first noticed you.
So, if I can encourage you today- keep going! Your voice is BEAUTIFUL and needed. I for one am blessed by your words. Every single time I read them.
Love you!

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pruningprincesses October 4, 2013 at 9:07 pm

Becky, I might just have to print out your words and tape them next to the computer. Oh how they almost made me cry (I cry easily…at happy, at sad, at angry). Looking forward to your 31 days of posts. At this point, I am hoping for maybe 2 posts a week. The words just aren’t flowing.

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Ashley Mays October 4, 2013 at 5:24 pm

Been there, felt this! (Recently! Haha.) You aren’t alone, friend. Praying for your words to return when it is best for you and your family, but also praying for peace and release in the meantime. 🙂

PS: Your blog is adorable! I love the name.

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pruningprincesses October 4, 2013 at 9:04 pm

Thank you for the encouragement, Ashley. Knowing that others have been through this helps. Honestly, I’ve never had writer’s block before. Tell me, how did you recover?

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Jenn October 4, 2013 at 7:54 pm

Visiting from FMF, I love your post! Good for you for being honest, for talking about how awful it feels to lose that knack for writing YOURSELF. Your words flow so well, I wouldn’t give up hope just yet if I were you 😉 Your words are surely a blessing for many. Thankyou for sharing.

Jenn

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pruningprincesses October 4, 2013 at 9:05 pm

Thank you, Jenn. Your encouragement is sweet to my heart. I’ve been struggling with writing for a few months now and needed some encouragement. I’ve never had writer’s block before. I know it is common, but I don’t like it!

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Becky October 4, 2013 at 10:02 pm

Laura, I love your honesty here. It’s hard sometimes, isn’t it? Even when writing is something we love, something that unlocks hidden things and ignites parts of us that have been snuffed out by the demands of life, of motherhood…even knowing this, it can still be hard. Keep on keepin on, writing sister. FMF is so glad to have you a part of our community! Your voice, your story is important. Write.

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