It is Friday. You know the drill. Five minutes of writing. It is a beautiful community and I am just discovering its blessings. Join us over at Lisa-Jos. Today’s word: focus.
A mental list of faults that need to be corrected unscrolls in my mind. The list of traits I want them to have is long and it is hard teaching characteristics I have not mastered myself. Still, I try. I pick stories, heroes, prayers that emphasis fearlessness, perseverance, kindness, bravery.
And I try more, almost will, my girls not to pick up my faults. My fears. My selfishness. I do not want them to experience the pain that holds hands with cowardliness or discouragement or doubt.
When I focus on the list, I see the faults. I see the work there is to be done. The lessons that I want stored in their hearts. Lessons I can teach but not force to grow roots. I miss the grace of God.
Ignoring the list and teaching them instead the wonders of God and the peace of gratitude, I can re-see their beauty, enjoy their quirks, and wait expectantly for God to mold them. Grace returns.